I don’t like to show the whole;
So I show the fragments instead.
I control the angle,
The body part(s) on display,
The composition,
The filter… if I use one at all–
And I might,
If my insecurity is showing.
I have days,
Too many to count,
When I hate myself wholeheartedly…
Every hair…
Every blemish…
Every roll…
Every stretchmark…
Every fucking centimetre…
And I feel that it would be better
If I actually were only the fragments I choose to show,
Rather than the disappointing whole.
It’s just as well–
I can never quite capture the all of me anyway
She is elusive and blurry,
And doesn’t stand still
Long enough to be caught.
Self-love is a constant struggle of Sisyphus… pushing that motherfucking dung ball up a hill, then, after my hands and feet lose purchase, watching it roll the fuck back down… again….
Will I ever feel good enough for me?
Yes.
I will.
And it will continue to be a battle.
If it weren’t, there would be
No lessons
And no growth.
So I bear the shards of the pain and pleasure of self-actualization
In equal measure.
With grinding teeth
And gasping breaths
And tears that brand my cheeks
In bloody streaks,
I bear the fragments
And the whole of me.
β€π½xoxoxoπ½β€
Somehow with the fragments seen I don’t believe the “whole” would be disappointing in the least.
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You’re always very sweet, Mr. Brownstone πππ Just having a poopy mood day. I will be all good after an orgasm or two… π
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Have confidence!! Easily said but sometimes difficult to do.
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I love to hear your optimism. I’m working on a project and I find I take full body nudes to hide the parts I’m insecure about in plain sight.
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Thank you β€. You have a very nice healthy body. Hard to see what you would be insecure about, but everyone has their thing. I try to stay optimistic…. Self-hate is far too easy.
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Absolutely the same to you, seriously. Every part of you Iβve seen has been gorgeous! Youβre lovely!
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π… Thank you π
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I think you’re beautiful! Thanks for sharing this part of yourself π₯°
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Thank you β€ And it is my pleasure to share.
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Please share
But mostly Please LOVE β€οΈ Beautiful you
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I think this really captures your struggle and mindset, which is wonderful and interesting to read
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Thanks. It’s important that I don’t sound sorry for myself. I know it is my responsibility to pull myself up. Glad you liked the look inside my head lol
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I didn’t at all get the feeling that you feel sorry for yourself, so you nailed that! π
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Ok good. I hate to come across that way. I always try to find the light when I am feeling crappy. Thank you again. And I must say that I still can’t stop thinking of your photo with the black lingerie with the bow, and those black heels. Very inspiring piece of art. You are very beautiful… π. β€β€β€
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Honestly, I don’t think expression of feelings has to mean that one feels sorry about themselves. You can tell who does and who doesn’t and you don’t seem to be someone who would.
Aw haha, thank you! β€ πMaybe you should take one too, I’d love to see it
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Perhaps… but I lack rhe right shoes. Perhaps I should buy a pair… for photos and play time and date nights. Mmm!
Thanks for the support. Xoxo
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You should!! π xx
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“In equal measure.
With grinding teeth
And gasping breaths
And tears that brand my cheeks
In bloody streaks,
I bear the fragments
And the whole of me.”
I like the power in those lines π
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Thank you πππ
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My pleasure.
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Super relatable β€π€
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